I always get chosen to do works, which suits my outside and not my inside. Most people cannot see what is inside of me, unless they are really sensitive and understanding. I find it very difficult to swallow. Sometimes I feel like screaming, crying and destroying the whole world. Even when I was in school in Jamaica I never go to perform a folk piece, I always got to play the role of a woman in a suit. Of course I did not do it well, I can never do it well. Why? Because that is not who I am. I can fake it, but I would never be able to do it half as good as reggae- , dancehall-, hiphop- or an African piece. Why? Because the four elements make me complete, they represent the person that I am, from top to bottom. I can relate to it, because this is the life that I am living from morning till night. These are the people whom I can relate to, why? Because I have lived their lives, I understand them and I know who they are. I go crazy, because in this city, everybody gets chosen for work, de